reborn

it been so long since i've updated.
and i still have no clue how to do this thing so bare with me.

it'll take time for me to get use to this site but i hope i'll get hang of it A.S.A.P

so to start off,

well umm hmm well nothing interesting

but umm oh yah anytime now i'll be hearing the news of the first born Mini Moose into the world.
lol no not a real Moose but soon-to-be-father Jared Padalecki's first son.
AAAHHH super excited!
                                                 Genevieve(Jared's pregnant wife) with a fan.

soo and i'll be a volunteer/model for hair competition for a makeover.
hmm i dunno should i dye my hair like this?

or

neither cause surely my mom will chop my HEAD off if i come home looking like that.
so whoever gets me to be their model, sorry babe no dramatic hairstyles for me. SIGH

so yah too lazy to type some more so TOODLES!

           nawww.......

             i miss you too my cheeky little prince...

goodbye my best bud, love you Papa

I'd woke up one day and realize that life would never be the same again ; every morning I'd be awake and wishes that it's just a dream ; a nightmare to be exact, but yet it is not, for once my wish didn't come true, wish that I'll wake up early in the dawn, getting ready for the day, waiting for him to drive me to college with his cab ; that I'll received a text message asking me what time to pick me up, waiting for him to pick up, waiting in the cab while he went to buy food: keropok lekur and banana fritters, chatting away bout my day with him, asking him bout random stuff to avoid him from getting pissed with drivers in Malaysia, sleeping in his cab while he's driving us back home, arrived safe in one piece and finally be home with my family. But then, life doesn't work that way, fate took him away from me when all he ever seen me is a lazy ; unambitious ; and to top it of a failure. I'll never get a chance to prove to him that I'll be a well re-known fashion designer in the world, named with Dato' to my name, to surprise them with a huge mansion ; a garage to fit the cars ; a fantasy garden for him to care ; a lake for him to fished ; a surau for him to lead us his family to daily prayers ; a family cinema to watch his our favorite movies as a family time together ; but what hurt me the most is that knowing that he won't be there to give me away proudly to my future husband to be son in law ; to witness my wedding day fills with joy, happiness and mostly love ; he won't get a chance to get the news of my first pregnancy ; to hold his first grandson from his youngest ; to see my children grew ; not gonna be there giving me advises in kids ; my children won't get a chance to live in his memory nor remember how he look ;

and cause of this nightmare, I'd lose a piece of my heart and to know his gone forever will never be stitched again.

but I'd promised you on your death bed that 'I'll make you proud' and I'll grant that promise even if that's the last thing in my to do list.

whatever it is, you'll forever be in my memory...

till then we will meet again on the end of time, my best bud

and I'll forever love you, papa as you're the best dad any child could asked for....

a song to remember you by ;

oh guys u crack me up everytime...

LOL....
seRiousLy Jensen an aQuaRiuM in ur traiLer... thouGh i wiSh u guys use the TV GUIDE cover mag.
iT wiLL be "AWESOME" quoTe from BecKy...

1st term final project, LOST AND STILL NOT FOUND...

sob... sob....

i'd really work so hard and i mean HARD to finish that damn skirts...

i didn't sleep for a week for cryin out loud...

then i got the news that my lec. already marked it and when to get it and

PUFF... it's just gone...

nowhere to be found...

i really want it back!

kayh one of them which is this:

and i HATE it but it took a toll lots of me...

but i like this one...

so now i really WISH that in some miracle way

that i'll find both of it before it'll gone forever....

then i'll be more devastate and sad at the same time....

Blast of fun with my high school mates... a.k.a mini anti-seafood but missin one person...

GEE... i've fun yesterday....

chillin wit my High School mates a.k.a best frenz 4eva...... but missin one person though...
mini anti-seafood not complete witout Yatt Mirae(not her real name ;D)
instead of her, in exchange Eryn Edrina brought her BF/school mate too... Pejal....
we though it gonna be awkward but it turned out fine...

at first we thought we want to hang out at Times Square.
and everythng was set but my sis said is not safe there and my mom probably won't let me coz
"scared anything happen" DUDE, i'm like wat 18? btw some says i even look like i'm 25 which i'm kinda flattered coz i look matured and i can get away easily. hehehehe.... ;P

so, change of venue to KLCC but then they said is kinda out of their pocket money
and at the end the destination changed to Mid Valley... ;D

watch tis malay horror comedi movie... ummm... not a big fan but it's okay la...
but the cinema was like freakin damn cold... i was like shivering....

after the movie ended, still hungry haven's eat my breakfast yet instead of goin to get some food for my empty stomach we went bowling coz between us galz who don't know wat to do next so we let Pejal make the desicions....

just one played one game and i was on the lead... but i hate my score coz normally i reach 100 above so i guess i should play wit my belly full next time...
but anywho, after we bowled the last pins, we went to the the lower ground Cafeteria
and when we arrived there it was so packed...

while there we met Aqramul(i dunno how to spell his name, just bare wit me) his hair was umm...
one of a kind....
still haven't found place to sit so we went the second Cafeteria the Oasis next to Mac shop.

After filling our stomach wit food, FINALLY... we decided to go karaoke...
Pejal drove Eryn's mom car to idk where the place was...

when we arrived there it was kinda scary, but we just bare with it... but tht time i was like freakin thirsty so i bought 100 plus there and DAMN!!!
their like bloodsuckers! it cost rm3 for cryin out loud!!!

book the room for 1 hour,
at first, yanie and me was kinda shy to sing coz we barely knew Pejal...
but after awhile we relax a lil and just sing our hearts out... ;D

after tht we went home and tht's tht...
it'll be even more fun if Yatt there wit us....

but wateva it was i have a blast...
can't wait to meet u guys again at the end of tis year....

Lovez..... (",)

Exhausted, Sleepy, and Stressed....

Aww....
second term is back and here goes another 3 months of

"SLEEPLESS NIGHT"

imagine if college years i like tis i'm wonderin bout the life of becomin
fashion designer out there...

damn... well i asked for it... so stop whining bout it...

did i just shut myself up?

but now i'm determine to suck it up and embrace the challeges here
so tht in the future it'll be piece of cake...

GO!!! GO!! CHAIYOH!!!!! ;]